drewfitzpatrick

very
a frantic windreleased me from my pastdried my skin and washed my brainhung my flesh out to dryerased my genderas well as my namecaptured the anonymous entitythat it then stripped barein a feastin a forestin anything and everything once abandonedstrip mallssteel millcoal minethe home i grew up inmy best friends skullthe hollow center of the earthmy college educationmy greek vacationmy grave my birth gownmy eternity

a frantic wind
released me from my past
dried my skin and washed my brain
hung my flesh out to dry
erased my gender
as well as my name
captured the anonymous entity
that it then stripped bare
in a feast
in a forest
in anything and everything
once abandoned
strip malls
steel mill
coal mine
the home i grew up in
my best friends skull
the hollow center of the earth
my college education
my greek vacation
my grave
my birth gown
my eternity

tonight they shot at me againwhen i wasn’t paying attentioni am awarethat its been 4th of july weekendbut make no mistakethrough the windlike an eternal snap of a fingerin the black nightthey shot at me againlike a friendcalling outto get your attentionthey shot at me againin the morningi will look for bullet holesbut i wait for morningand morning onlybecause i know the gun manhates the the morningwith its embarrassing sunlightand faces carved with sanityand forgivenessand all the pleasantries this bringsbut tonightblack and empty they shot at me againas i eat dinneri wonderwhat the gun man wanted to tell me

tonight they shot at me again
when i wasn’t paying attention
i am aware
that its been 4th of july weekend
but make no mistake
through the wind
like an eternal snap of a finger
in the black night
they shot at me again
like a friend
calling out
to get your attention
they shot at me again
in the morning
i will look for bullet holes
but i wait for morning
and morning only
because i know the gun man
hates the the morning
with its embarrassing sunlight
and faces carved with sanity
and forgiveness
and all the pleasantries this brings
but tonight
black and empty
they shot at me again
as i eat dinner
i wonder
what the gun man wanted to tell me

the birds have moved inarrived at the same timeas the helicoptersin the middle of the nightas i scratched open my eyesstaringat the circles being flownabove my bedas i waitdumbguiltycuriousnothingas i waitlisteningobsessingpoisedas i waitfor the third night in a rowthey always wake meat the same time4ama true jungle this isgrowing lawlessendlessuncompromisingmechanical or natural it does not mattereach characteristic relentless nonetheless this morning the birds moved outleft at the same timeas the helicoptersno more shadowsover my bedsheetsas i beg for themto leave my mind as well

the birds have moved in
arrived at the same time
as the helicopters
in the middle of the night
as i scratched open my eyes
staring
at the circles being flown
above my bed
as i wait
dumb
guilty
curious
nothing
as i wait
listening
obsessing
poised
as i wait
for the third night in a row
they always wake me
at the same time
4am
a true jungle this is
growing lawless
endless
uncompromising
mechanical or natural it does not matter
each characteristic relentless nonetheless

this morning the birds moved out
left at the same time
as the helicopters
no more shadows
over my bedsheets
as i beg for them
to leave my mind as well

best ending to a movie! tryna make dat sun rise!

is everyday really a miracle though?i can taste metal in my mouththe sun has yet to touch my eyesmy lungs have yet to be cleansedsomewhere far awaysomewhere ill never go someone is falling asleepboredtireddoneas i wake upoldtiredwishfulabandoned theme parksabandoned strip clubsabandoned gas stationsabandoned corporate mallsabandoned slave plantationsis today really a miracle?

is everyday really a miracle though?
i can taste metal in my mouth
the sun has yet to touch my eyes
my lungs have yet to be cleansed
somewhere far away
somewhere ill never go
someone is falling asleep
bored
tired
done
as i wake up
old
tired
wishful
abandoned theme parks
abandoned strip clubs
abandoned gas stations
abandoned corporate malls
abandoned slave plantations
is today really a miracle?

today i remembered
couple months back
alone on a path
leading down to the ocean
i stumbled in a drunken migrained state
down to the sound of water
i found myself alone
i took a nap on a giant rock
in the sun
as a lizard
then i awoke
horny
clean and horny
i listened to the fog machine and i looked around
i pulled down my pants
i sat on the rock
i stared at the horizon and i masturbated
i came during high tide
then i climbed
back up the cliff
don’t know why i remembered this
don’t know why I’m posting it on tumblr